a lil time alone

time to catch my breathe.

the circumstances baffles me abit.
you cld see it in two ways.
but it's just that i find it difficult to swallow a standpoint that i never favoured.
for if i do, id prove my old self very wrong.

but to simplify it,
it makes me happy.
you make me smile.
and maybe im just too caught up being smittened.
but as for now.
i kinda like it this way.

i miss spending time with boo.
i do.
but im also happy for him,
the things are turning out for him now.

im can surely say that i am back.
at least thats how i felt in class today.
Mark inspires me somehow.
it may be the way he speaks,
or his background.
but his existence encourages me in an odd way.
it's been awhile since i find myself again in the classroom.

there's something about the group now.
which is obvious but i guess we try to ignore it.
it makes me a lil sad.
but im sure itll be fine.
it was the way something happened today,
that turned me off.
i just dont see why u act that way sometimes.
i do not however blame u.
maybe i have myself to blame.
maybe it's really nutin.
but i do love u none-the-less.
you still are my peps.

i wish i could catch myself,
and hold myself back for a second.
yet i dont want to stop.

you. you scare me.