If you have time, if you have heart.

I'll tell you what's queer.
Queer is when your father adds you on msn.
That, is seriously very queer.

However i have to commend that it's nice to know that the father keeps up with the times. Yet parents will be parents and i wouldn't be surprised to receive a msg from him saying, "Arn't you in class? You should pay attention." Leading to a very hostile reply of, "dude, i know what i'm doing."
You have to understand that my father forwards me very odd emails with headers like "how coke kills you" or "setting goals in your life". What are you supposed to make out of that? However that may simply be his only channel to reach me.
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Truth be told, i shudder when people unexpectedly try to cross the bridge to get to where you are. You get so taken aback and you retreat hoping that it will return you to a more comfortable position. Do we all do that?
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As the two of you sail off in different directions over stormy seas, it puts the pressure on me to talk to you each more. Even if I need to be there for the both of you, individually, quietly. If it's what i need to do, even if i wish i don't have to.
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You know how sometimes you do things out of selfishness and you beat yourself up for it because you are aware that you are being a bitch but you cant help it because of how you are feeling? Some people are just simply clueless of how self-centered they are. To the extent that i still cannot concur. The world does not revolve around your life, your needs.

Today's bulletins
Let's just saw that Vivace was, interesting. Our booth seemed like an almost disaster at first but managed to pull along fine. I miss the old exco. Things were just handled differently. The crowd and atmosphere in school was simply mindblowing. A peculiar vibrant warmth engulfed the walkways. Watching Puppy stomp down the aisle chanting "FLOORBALL", in utmost enthusiam totally made my day. Or ZY insisting that i should join his game club because he's such a yandao. Or bumping into josh and giving him the "HEH HEH" look. Bringing Terence and Ben around school and bumping into butt-many CJ kids.

Munchkins and Saboteur with T, Chow-wee, Ong n BY was a blast.

My laptop, Lappy Dearest, is staying over at the clinic. I am not expecting to have him return into my arms till after Monday. Bullocks. Which is the reason why i'm at this very instance using my desktop in the music room (aka T's room). I could seriously be doing this in the comfort of my fluffy haven.

Eddie is in SMU. 84, prefect, small boy Eddie. He HAS changed quite abit. Bumped into him in school.

I feel as though ive been running a never-ending race. Tonight is one of those nights that i keep to rest my soul. Hopefully it passes by real slow.

It is seldom that i break into narating my days. There is no hidden meaning, imagery or layers. Therefore i thank you for staying with me through the length of this post.

p.s.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WAIHOONG!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMY!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BIQIN!